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[26 Feb 2007|06:20pm]
I think it was a mistake hooking up with you again. Your not the person i want to be with right now. It hurts me to say that, I still love you more than anything. But when were two worlds apart, we have nothing in common. it hurts hearing "yea i saw mike at a club this weekend". I told you, you can't live the single life with me. And i really can't take this anymore. If you want me then you'd stop the pot and partying, and you can't, so obviously we don't belong together.
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[22 Jan 2007|03:11pm]
so i've had so many thoughts lately, i think ill be using this more often. I miss mike alot but i know i need to get over it, but whenever i go with a guy (i've been out with before, not a complete stranger) its like i literally have to force myself to kiss him. I guess anything to ease the pain.
I really just can't wait to start my life. I can't wait to graduate and work at camp again. I cant wait to start school in September and meet a whole bunch of new people. I can't wait to move into Sandy's old house. I can't wait until i get my car. I can't wait to fall in love again. And for that matter get over Mike. But in all honesty I don't want to.

No joke, Im so sick of crying myself to sleep. Im sick of not being able to eat and then feeling like throwing up because im taking my pills on an empty stomach. Im sick of thinking of you to the point where i just want to give up on life. Im not even trying in school anymore. I have an F in almost every class. I feel no motivation to get the hell out of Hillcrest. Sometimes i just want the world to end. I wake up and just wish it was night time again because when im sleeping It's the only time im not thinking of you.

I miss you so much and even though you are putting me through hell, i still love you and want you back.
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[18 Aug 2006|08:39pm]
[ mood | infuriated ]

I don't know..I've been thinking of this one night alot lately...all I remember was the pain and going to the bathroom crying asking "why?". And all that asshole says is I though you wanted it..man fuck that shit...and I came back to you when you treated me like shit and disrespected me.
I can't believe I ever trusted you.

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[06 Aug 2006|10:56pm]
Less than a month until senior year! yesss
woo alyssa senior retreat 20-22
gosh i cant wait
&&& my birthday

pch mike left tonight to go to san diego that booger...mm i love him
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[31 Jul 2006|12:17pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

senior year approaching. I can't wait. Ha im retarded for wanting to go back to school but its going ot be fun..plus im on senior council. Then graduation with all my friends. Cynthia and alyssa and sam and bryant lol.woo yea

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[23 May 2006|03:00pm]
I want to be great my senior year. I want to work hard and really be a leader. Im just worried im going to becoem overwhelmed because i usually dont really apply myself. This last week has been hectic enough. I started driving class. Now volleyball practice starts from 3-5 and i have driving class from 5-9. I really really want to be on the volleyball varsity team and im going to try really hard. I just want senior year to be memorable..and im still really happy i got on senior council.
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[10 May 2006|05:01pm]
mmmm sukkas yea im in senior council next year
im sooo excited
wooo senior representative along with Big B
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[04 Apr 2006|05:34pm]
p.s. my nose job is in 13 days. I couldnt be more scared/nervous if i tried.
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[04 Sep 2005|11:05pm]
[ mood | happy ]

My mommy bought me a puppy for my birthday

wooo im 16 TOMMOROW FINALLY!

Happy Birthday Alyssa

<333

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